So that's why I have been feeling agitated these past couple of days and did not post the pics.

I won't re-write the problem because it's unnecessary, everyone knows about it already.

I admit, I was being selfish at first.

The thing that worried me the most is that only 3 members are doing this.

I'm sure had it been the 5 of them, I would be less worried and agitated.

That, obviously, is because I'd rather have them together.

How selfish of me.

Now, after I thought about it, like, a thousand times, I'm sure that they have their reasons as to why they're doing this.

I'm also sure, it's not like an overnight decision.
This is a big deal, not a trivial matter.

With that being said, I also realized that as hard as this may be for me as a fan, this must be a thousand times harder for them.

They have to deal with the media (god knows how savage media can be) and also the SM itself, they should not need to deal with the anger or confusion or disappointment from the fans, too; what they need right now as support and as a fan, what else I can give other than exactly that?

These past couple of days have been just absolutely unreal.

From the lawsuit news, their SBU Sweet Room version (what's up with THAT, by the way? So gay, LOL), A-Nation, Yunho's Evisu photoshot (hot stuff. waiting for more) and then the release of their 3rd Concert Album - it has been an emotional roller coaster.

And it's only because of these 5 guys. Absolutely crazy.

In a good way, of course, haha.

But this makes me think (yes, think, AGAIN) about them.

I guess, right now, I'm already prepared for the worst.

Not now, of course, I'm 99% positive they're not gonna disband now but who knows about the future?

I asked my self, what truly matters for me?

And the answer is their happiness, that each of them is happy, and if (god forbid this ever happens *knock on wood*)they're not happy being with each other, then I'd rather have them disband.

Just saying.

All of these stuffs make me wonder why people want to become an idol in the first place.